Can We Be Still Friends (?)

I know we are different...
And there are so many difference between us...
Each of us knows that we wont be together...
But somehow, I do really want you to always be with me...
I want you to be the person I am looking when I feel sad, happy, worry or scared..
I want you to be the first person to know everything I know...
I want to hold your hand when I am in doubt...
In the other side, I know that now I am trying to break my own heart...
Hoping something that will never ever happen...
But at least...... can we still be friends?

Farewell and Goodbye

I have said so many goodbye...
Too many farewell...

There was so many hands that help me to stand...
There was so many awesome ears to listen all my stories...
To all my happiness.. To all my complaints.. To all my worries...
I had some shoulders to lean on...
I had some some backs that can hold me if I fall...
I was sure about my life...
I was confident about myself...
I knew where to run when I have problems...
I knew with who I should talk when I want to share my happiness...
And I didn't know what is loneliness....

But now....
One by one they began to leave...
Leaving me alone at the corner...
Waving their hands to me...
Looking at me for the last time...
Saying "Take care" to me as their last words...
Don't even care if I cry or not, because they're not coming back...
As their shadow is gone..
I have no more hands to hold me to stand...
I have no more ears to share all my stories...
I have no more shoulders to lean on...
I have no more backs to hold me if I fall...

Now I exactly know what loneliness is...

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080216/20:06

I Want to be Like A Wind

Angin berhembus menerjang siapapun yang ada di depannya
Tanpa ingin menghindar, tak memiliki arah
Tak berpikir siapa yang akan dilukainya
Sepintas melintas bebas kemanapun dia mau
Menjelajah ke setiap tempat menari-nari di udara
Tak berbentuk dan tak terlihat
Tak perlu khawatir jika ada yang melihatnya

Seandainya aku angin
Bisa berlari kemanapun aku mau
Menangis atau tertawa tanpa ada yang bisa melihat
Berteriak tanpa ada yang bisa mendengar
Menyendiri bebas sesuka hati
Pelampiasan tanpa batas
Lelah jika harus selalu bersembunyi hanya untuk berteriak...


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060216/20:48

Time and Regret

Apa yang diucap bibir tak selalu benar sesuai kata hati
Apa yang hati pun tak selalu ingin diucap
Yang kadang hanya ingin disimpan sendiri, tapi berujung gelisah
Buat ragu, bahkan terkadang sedih
Menyesali diri tak punya keberanian
Menyesali diri karena malu lebih mendominasi
Menyesali diri atas ketidakmampuan untuk mengungkapkan
Menyalahkan diri jika merasa waktu telah berlalu jauh
Menyalahkan waktu kenapa tak berhenti sesaat
Membodohi diri yang telah membuang banyak waktu
Memaki diri sendiri yang sudah mengindahkan banyak kesempatan
Saling menyalahkan tanpa akhir yang pasti
Melangkah entah kemana, semakin bingung menentukan jalan
Merasa selalu salah kemanapun kaki menapak
Tak bisa berpegang, dan pasrah jatuh dalam kecewa
Menikmati tangis dan setumpuk penyesalan
Cukup dinikmati...
Tanpa mengucap pada siapapun...



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050216/23:59